So i have been vegan for around 3 months now and ofcourse it's too early to make conclusions but most of the time i feel just fine. It wasn't a decision really i just randomly started to notice that i had more and more problems with eating meat on a physical level, so i went like "huh? what is that about? i have never struggled with eating meat. I ate meat 2-3 times a day and now suddenly i can barely finish a small patty. Maybe i am actually dying or something because even after quiting meat i still feal nauseous after eating desserts and that didn't happen in the past. But even if so i am thankfull to God for doing that to myself cause it actually got me interested in whether it's possiable to live without animal products at all and what is happening to animals. You can call me dumb but i actually thought people producing meat made sure cows died like sheep in Old Testement - without pain and really really quickly, so i was shoked when i saw Dominion and then looked up other stuff online. Then i discovered that being vegan doesn't actually hurt one's health all that much if you actually keep track of what you are eating (you should try to do it anyway) and all you need is some extra supplements like B12. I actually started to feel better after i quite meat: more energy, focus, horny only 1-2 times a week, maybe even more positive outlook on life! I was glad and totaly didn't expect that cause when i was fasting as a teen it never was that easy for some reason and i was ready to feel the same. I go to the gym but mainly to just get some physical activity and to not let myself become a skinny fat, so all that talk about it being bad for your results dosn't actually concern me. However, i actually haven't seen changes besides positive ones: my ass is fatter but my waist is smaller and arm muscles are more visible now, so i bassicaly leaned up without loosing too much muscle to cry over it."
And change in diet influenced my thinking: i was shocked to realize that science made ethical living easier than ever these days. Now being vegan results in maybe spending 5 more mins in the shop than an average person if you are living in a big city (i feel really bad for all small-towm vegans. you are queens and kings). You have a variety of options to choose from and they don't all taste like spinach. Some are just healthier versions of cheap meals that have 90% soy and 10% pig's fat or something. Soul is build like an onion and sometimes to change morally you need to do something to your physical self (chakra medetation, reiki, any sport you like and sometimes becoming vegetarian or vegan). And by purchising cruelty free products and putting pressure on scientist to develop new methods of research so that they use animals only when ther is no other way you can make world a little better for all living homies of Earth. I don't think everybody should be vegan or vegetarian so i don't approve most activists cause some people have ANEMIA THAT MAKES THEM INCAPABLE OF GETTING EVERYTHING FROM PLANTS AND THEY NEED BULL BLOOD TO FUCNTION YOU GUYS!! and it is an absolutely valid reason actually cause science is working on that problem. Some need to be bulky to complete their life mission of being sexy call of duty guys for example.Idea of quiting meat should be a part of some bigger change in a person and without it you are just a hipster bro. But if you are still reading maybe you think of it but doupt, so let me wrap it up real fast.
Even if you don't belive in reincarnation i think animals suffer and have some sort of emotions (some are even complex like missing someone) and denying that can only come from never even thinking about it or strategic ignorance to keep inner peace without change. We as humans are no longer that connected to rules of nature. They influence us but we can still choose to stay above. Thats what puts animals below us cause they don't have that authority despite some having strange acts of kindness. I try to only cause harm when i've been attacked first. And yes if a tiger jumps on me i won't let him tear me apart, it will cause different emotions in me if a man tries to do the same thou cause humans are one species and maybe not equal but at least equal enought to concur. Nothing shows man's true colors more than how he treats those below him. It's easy to be nice to your boss cause you can be punished otherwise and starve to death maybe. But when you see a hobo you actually lose nothing for beating him up with no motive when no one is looking. Maybe only a right to think of yourself in a certain way.
The only downside i noticed is that i became more prone to overreacting in both positive AND negative way. I became more spontaneous and this blog is a living proof. It's bad for my OPSEC but my OPSEC is already cooked so.. Maybe it's connected to me skipping B12 tabs for days at a time. Should stay consistent cause i don't want to look like a doll that was given to a bully brother or some shi.